I do not have a relationship for a long time

Ok , this is about my love story .
sound stupid,maybe .
but I will tell u about my concerns ..hahha
I didnt have a boy friend for a long time , I means I cannot love someone(boy) recently ..
but Iam not lesbian ,hahhaha..
but there r many reason i cant belief someone (especially a boy) easily..


first.
I've broken up with my boyfriend two years ago..
we have the same world and we're not like a couples but we're more looked like a friend.
I happy with him.

second.
after I've broken up, I cant stand up .
I've got crazy , I meet many boys and I didnt match with them .
what a pitty.

3rd.
I had a boy friend, but my relationship only went 2 month.
because,I couldnt force my feel to love him.

4th.
Until now , I used to be a single, I have many friends, I having a short fuckin date with several men, and I almost forgot how I should be committed with only 1 men.hahhaha
I dont know until when I can change into normal girl again .kakka

yay , but I love my life, I love it until I dont want to close my eyes every night .
big thanks for witch who support me , and love me however Iam..they can make me enjoy my colourfull life without fvkin boyfriend in my teenage life ...hahhaha

















than for my dearest friend in my college ..
CACAT.














for insane who make me insane too ..
thx for ur time to hear my bored story..














For my "pretty BB friend" ..thx for ur party always...


and many all ..so thx ..

for my dearest friend .

mungkin km mengatakan hal itu adalah hal terberat yang km lalui.
hal yang gg mungkin bisa orang lalui dengan gampang .
hal yang susah untuk merubah sesuatu kebiasaan ,
dimana , bersama siapa, saat kapan ,berbagi sesuatu.
tapi satu yang dipertanyakan disini , sudah tau kah km akan apa yng telah terjadi ?
kalau kamu sudah paham akan apa yang terjadi kamu akan memahami sekelilingmu, orang disekitarmu , keadaan yang mengelilingimu ..
stlah itu km akan tau dmn km harus menempatkan diri dan tidak menuntut banyak hal.
mugkin terdengar gapang bagiku karena aku tidak mengalaminya dan aku tidak berharap sedikitpun untuk mengalaminya.
tetapi tidakkah km sebaiknya berfikir, ini salah satu cara mengerti kehidupan dan membuat seseorang mnjadi kuat .
mungkin jutaan orang mempunyai keadaan lebih kritis daripada km .
km masih menpunyai banyak sodara untuk berbagi .
untuk sama2 menikmati .
sesuatu yang harus dilanjutkan didunia ini .
siapapun yang kamu temui pasti kan ada perpisahan dan perubahan situasi .

semangat!!!

disconnected

I would never die for you.
so many words that you said
were contradictions.
You heard my story but heard it all wrong
Nothing...
I got nothing nice to say...
Lock myself away...
felt so infected..
I'm lost, so lost, so lost
runaway, runaway ....
It's so hard to swallow,
When you find someone that nobody wants...
anaesthetized
unconditionally love ..
but i know ill learn from this....

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